Emily

GA一直是我在追的影集
昨天看了 season 9 的一集 其中 Bailey 對 Arizona 的對話讓我非常有感觸

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Baily 對家長說: 他們現在不同意基因組作圖
They are not approving the genome mapping at this time.

家長回說:但是你說...
But you said that...

Baily: 我們沒想到會這樣, 對不起
We were sure that it was gonna go the other way.
So I'm sorry.

另一位醫師 Arizona: 現在只好重新考慮結腸切除術
我想再等一天 看AJ是否有好轉
但還是得盡快手術
So now we're back to a colectomy.
I want to wait another day to see if A.J. improves, but... it needs to be soon.

家長: 這是唯一的選擇嗎
I-is that our only option?

Arizona: 恐怕是的
Yeah,I'm afraid that that's...

Bailey: 不是 還有別的選擇
你可以去其他醫院 尋找治療方法
能提供他應得治療的醫院
這裡提供不了
勸你離開
離開西雅圖仁愛醫院 盡快另請高明
No. There's one other option.
You can go someplace that will find an approach that works for him,
someplace that will give him the care that he deserves.
He won't get that here.
I say leave.
Leave Seattle Grace and go someplace else,fast.

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離開了病人的房間 Arizona 與 Bailey 的對話
Arizona: 怎麼回事
What the hell was that?

Bailey: 我只能給他們這個治療建議
也許對我也同樣適用
That was the only medical advice I could give them in good conscience.
I'm thinking I need to take it myself.

Arizona: 等等 你說什麼
Hey,whoa. What are you talking about?

Bailey: 我嘗試過 強顏歡笑 俯首稱臣
自欺欺人 也許我該去洛杉磯工作
我丈夫在那裡
I tried.I tried to put on the smile and knuckle down and make it work, but maybe
I can get a job in L.A., be where my husband is

Arizona: 不 也許我們可以協商
可以共同解決
別說了 你哪也不會去
No,no,maybe I can talk to him,right?
Maybe we can work something out.
Stop it. Stop it. You aren't going anywhere.

Bailey:我不想再在這裡工作了
我覺得很卑微
感覺寄人籬下
如果再這樣下去 我都沒臉面對兒子
這裡的人和事已經面目全非了
我不想再繼續待下去
不想自甘墮落
我犯過不少錯 但袖手旁觀才最糟

I don't want to work here anymore.
It makes me... feel small.
I have to make myself smaller to work here.
I-I feel like if I do that,I feel like I won't want to look my son in the eye.
I don't recognize this place anymore or the people.
I d... I don't want to hang around long enough that I don't recognize myself.
I've had some sucky jobs here,but doing nothing sucks the worst.
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我有同樣的感觸
常常會聽到身邊的人說, 其實你現在這樣也不錯啊~ 你看還有更慘的人
他們是怎麼樣被惡整的
我只想說...
別人怎麼樣,我不知道! 那也不是我的重點
我只知道~ 那不是我要的
我要的生活不是要跟別人比較的! 我要的生活是我要的!
是我自己可以接受的!

所以!!

不要再跟我說, 你看看其他那些人怎樣樣
它們可以選擇! 或者他們無法選擇,或者他們不敢做選擇 他們不要做選擇! 但, 那是他們的事情~ 不是我的!
既然我可以選擇~ 我為什麼要讓自己看不起自己 然後繼續留在原地踏步!